The spark before the flame

One of my many mottos to live by has been, "never a dull moment". I have always hated the feeling of being alone and because of that, I constantly like to surround myself with attention and people. Just as we all have our strengths and weaknesses, we all have our dreams and nightmares. I think my greatest nightmare is being alone. This is an idea that I have been ruminating about recently. When I think about the passing of Christmas, I am not being facetious when I say the things I miss the most are all the laughing and camaraderie shared with family and friends. When I think about being laid off, what I miss most is not the money but the bond between co-workers. Mother Teresa, in her infinite wisdom once said, "The most terrible poverty is loneliness; and the feeling of being unloved." The sage words that Ms. Teresa wrote about are absolutely true. I don't know yet if I will move to Chicago but I am certainly leaning toward yes. It is not that I will have great material wealth, or security by moving there. But the thrill of the new, and the love I have felt from those living in the biggest Midwestern city is palpable to me.

1. Yesterday I watched the documentary, Enron: The Smartest Guys in the Room. I loved it!!! I learned so much about the absolute hubris that took down the 7th biggest company in America. I learned about the connection between the Bush administration and Enron and how Enron caused the power shortages in California for their personal gain. To simplify it, Enron basically set up a monopoly with the power companies in California. They then caused power shortages making electricity a more valuable commodity. This is of course unethical and illegal. However, the SEC (Securities Exchange Committee) coincidentally never investigated Enron... I wonder if the Bush/Enron connection had anything to do with that? That is just ONE of the many scams that Enron did in their history.

2. Speaking of movies, Mike and I watched the movie Pineapple Express this afternoon. Director Judd Apatow described the movie on the back of the box as, "Stoner comedy meets Die-Hard". Not quite. I thought the movie was mediocre at best. I would probably give it a C. There were several times I laughed out loud but the movie is so ridiculously sophomoric that it was unwatchable at times.